KGI [7] Forged in Steele Read online

  “I want us to have sex,” he said bluntly.

  She blinked owlishly and stared back at him in silence. Though her glasses were fogged with the heat from their kiss and she itched to remove them so she wouldn’t miss any part of this exchange.

  “Ooo-kay,” she began slowly. “You want to have sex with me. You want to have sex with a woman to whom you’ve never spoken more than a few words at a time. Tell me something, Steele, is this one of those situations where any pussy will do? Is it a guy thing, coming off a mission and you’ll dip into the first available well you can find?”

  He looked completely taken aback by her blunt language. Surprised even. Then he seemed to figure out that it was possible he’d just been insulted.

  “I don’t fuck around,” he growled. “I’m clean. I use condoms. I haven’t had sex in a year.”

  “All righty then,” she said, more than a little surprised at his admission. “Maybe a little more than I needed to know.”

  “If you’re sleeping with me, you need to know.”

  This was true. But wait, was she sleeping with him? Was she entertaining the idea of sleeping with him? The mind boggled. A man she’d spent plenty of time fantasizing about was here in her living room calmly discussing the matter of sex between them as if it were something they did on a regular basis. Not that she’d have a problem with that. But she definitely had questions because this was shaping up to be the most bizarre day in a very long time.

  “Why?” she asked softly. “You don’t even like me, Steele. You can barely stand to be in my presence.”

  He pulled her back close, trapping her in his arms, his gaze boring into hers. “Why do you think that is, Maren? You’re an intelligent woman. You saw the hard-on I had for you earlier. Put two and two together and I bet you’ll find your answer.”

  “You’re attracted to me,” she whispered.

  He stood a long moment without saying a word. Finally he broke the silence, his jaw clenched. He was positively ill at ease. Cool, unflappable Steele was agitated.

  “You’re under my skin. Can’t get rid of you. Sometimes when I sleep . . . I can smell you,” he admitted. “I can see your eyes and those cute glasses you wear. I wonder what it would feel like to run my fingers through your hair.”

  Ho-ly shit. This was . . . epic. This . . . There wasn’t even a description for what this was. This was huge!

  She raised her hand, self-consciously adjusting the frames. “You think my glasses are cute?”

  He let out a sigh and then, to her utter astonishment, he relaxed, his shoulders dropping the tiniest bit, and an honest-to-God smile curved the corners of his lips upward.

  “Yeah. Cute.”

  “And you want to have sex with me,” she repeated.

  “I believe that’s what I said.”

  “Wow. And, um, what then?”

  His eyes narrowed. “You drive me crazy. You’re under my skin. Stuck deep. I don’t need you there. You’re a distraction, and I can’t afford distractions. So we’ll have sex and then I’ll stop fantasizing about what it’s like.”

  “I have to say, that’s about the worst proposition I’ve ever heard in my life.”

  Steele shrugged. “So I’m not a sensitive guy. You want to fuck or what?”

  She clamped her hands over her ears. “Stop. It’s only getting worse.”

  He pulled her arms down and then tilted her chin up with two fingers before he claimed her mouth again. She sagged into his arms, her eyes closing in bliss. When the man wasn’t talking—and she’d decided it had been a blessing he hadn’t spoken to her before—he was sexy as sin. Silence was sexy. So far, his speaking hadn’t been that great of an idea. Eloquence was not one of his strong points.

  “You want me,” he said gruffly against her mouth. “You want me every bit as much as I want you.”

  “Well duh,” she grumbled.

  He pulled away, his eyes flashing. Triumph glittered in those ice blue depths. Only instead of feeling the chill in his gaze, all she felt was searing heat.

  “The team is staying at the clinic. We have about six hours before we go wheels up. Your bed big enough for both of us?”

  Slowly she nodded.

  Without another word, he picked her up and she landed with a thud against his body. His arms tightened around her and he strode toward the doorway to her bedroom.

  Her pulse thundered in her veins and her heart was beating so fast she felt light-headed. This was really happening. Steele wanted to have sex with her. Steele was carrying her to her bedroom. In a few minutes they’d both be naked and in the same room. Holy hell!

  She braced herself, sure he’d dump her on the bed, but he surprised her by easing her gently onto the mattress before stepping back. He began to undress and her gaze was riveted to all the male flesh he was revealing.

  Mouthwatering.

  Hard. Muscled. Tight. Not a spare ounce anywhere on his body. Lean abdomen with a ripped six-pack. Broad shoulders and chest with bulging muscles in his upper arms. His thighs resembled tree trunks. Thick and sturdy.

  She grabbed for her glasses, tossing them toward the nightstand because this was too good to miss. It wasn’t as though she needed them all the time anyway. Just for reading and when she really needed to focus on an injury. Or lab reports.

  She held her breath when he yanked down his underwear. His erection bobbed upward, straining and rigid, the head a dusky plum color. She could see the thick vein running the length of his cock from base to head. The man was beautiful to look at. Suddenly she was extremely conscious of the fact that he would expect her to shed her clothes next, and she didn’t have the body he did. Not even close.

  She was too soft in places she shouldn’t be. Her boobs weren’t perky. They weren’t sagging yet, thank God, but they weren’t the kind you could bounce a quarter off. Her abdomen was squishy because she didn’t exercise enough and she enjoyed her sugar. At least her hips weren’t big, not that it was much in the way of reassurance. She wasn’t huge or anything, but she wasn’t one of the super slim women or the curvy ones who looked lush and beautiful. She was just sort of in between and . . . blah.

  “Give a mint to know what you’re thinking right now,” Steele muttered.

  “I’m blah,” she blurted out.

  Then she closed her eyes. She needed better social skills. This was what happened when someone grew up in an isolated environment, shut off from most of the world, never having friends or interacting with other people. They became a blithering idiot the first time they tried to interact with another person on an intimate level.

  “Blah?”

  The incredulity in his voice soothed some of her frayed nerves.

  “Yeah, blah. You’re gorgeous. I mean perfect. And I’m just blah. We don’t match up very well,” she said in a serious tone. “Gorgeous male specimens such as yourself do not have sex with blah women. They don’t have to. They can have sex with gorgeous female specimens, so why would they settle for blah?”

  His lips flapped up and down a moment and he looked so exasperated that she felt sure his next move would be to start pulling at his hair. “You’re shitting me, right?”

  She shook her head solemnly.

  “You’re an idiot,” he muttered.

  “You don’t call a woman an idiot if you have any plans to have sex with her,” Maren retorted.

  “You’re an idiot,” he said calmly.

  She had nothing to say to that.

  He gestured down. “Look at this. Do you think I get this hard for ‘blah’? That I’m so horny and desperate that I’ll fuck anything with a pussy? Jesus Christ, woman, I’m a goddamn walking hard-on around you. Haven’t you ever noticed?”

  “N-no,” she stammered out.

  “You’re an idiot,” he repeated.

  She frowned. “Okay, I’m really not liking that word.”

  He sighed. “Okay, you’re clueless then. Completely and utterly clueless.”

  She probably couldn’t ar
gue that point because well, it was true. She’d had no idea that he was remotely attracted to her. It still stunned her.

  She licked her lips and cleared her throat. “So let me get this straight so we’re on the same page. We have sex tonight. You leave at eight. And we never speak again and pretend this never happened. Do I have it right?”

  “Didn’t say we’d never speak again,” he rumbled.

  “Yes, because we spoke so much before,” she said sarcastically.

  “I want you out from under my skin.”

  Well, okay then. That was that. She wasn’t sure how she felt about being used as an exorcism of herself, but sex with Steele wasn’t something she was going to pass up. It wasn’t like opportunities cropped up for her in Bumfuck, Costa Rica. And she damn sure wasn’t going to admit how long it had been since she’d had sex. Better to let him think he’d been the one to go longer without it.

  “Whatever works for you,” she said with a sigh.

  She started to undo her pants, but Steele put his hand out and wrapped his fingers gently around her wrist.

  “No, let me. My fantasy. We’re doing it my way.”

  She wanted to say, Hey, what about my fantasy, but this was definitely her fantasy too, so he could have at it. And the idea that she was his fantasy . . . Whoa. Heady stuff. She could live with that. She liked it a whole lot.

  He bent over the bed and pressed her backward until she was flat on the mattress. Then he unfastened the fly of her jeans and began to peel the pants down over her hips.

  Nerves bubbled in her belly and chill bumps raced over her exposed skin. This was nerve racking. He was naked, and she was okay with that. Definitely. But the idea of her being naked? Of being utterly exposed to him? Of having him see her without clothes? Ugh.

  “Relax,” he murmured as he pulled the pants free of her legs.

  “Easy for you to say.”

  He leaned down and kissed her belly and the flutters increased, rising into her throat. He made what should have been something so simple incredibly sexy. Just a kiss. His lips barely brushed over her skin, but it was the most erotic gesture she’d ever experienced.

  “This is nice,” he said against her belly. “But I want that mouth and that pussy. They have to be sweet. I’ve dreamed about it. Wondered what you’d taste like. What you’d feel like underneath me. How it would feel when I got my dick inside that sweet pussy.”

  Wow. He’d dreamed about her. She really was under his skin. She kind of liked that even if he didn’t.

  He pushed up her shirt, rolling it up over her head, and then he gently raised her arms so he could tug the shirt free. After he tossed it aside, he settled his body over hers, warm and hard.

  Suddenly she didn’t mind her squishy body because it accommodated him in all the right places. He felt nice. No, not nice. He felt awesome. If he’d dreamed about her, she’d most definitely had a few X-rated fantasies about him.

  “Give me your mouth,” he whispered.

  Though his mouth hovered just over hers, his breath warm on her chin, he waited for her to offer her lips. Sucking in a quick breath, she raised her head so that her mouth touched his.

  If he’d been patient and slow to that moment, it all fled the moment their lips met.

  She sucked in his breath. He sucked in hers. Their tongues clashed, rolling hot and wet. He tasted faintly of mint, and she wondered if he’d done a quick cleanup before she’d arrived back at the cottage. For that matter, he smelled awesome. Clean. Not of dirt and blood and whatever else he encountered on his missions. Obviously he had made use of her shower.

  He pulled back, his chest heaving, his eyes glittering down at her. He brushed his hand over her cheek, pushing back her hair, sliding his fingers up and over her ear.

  “I was right. That mouth is sweet. Can’t wait to taste the rest of you.”

  She shivered uncontrollably. “I want to taste you too.”

  He smiled then. An honest-to-goodness full-on teeth-flashing smile. It startled her that his entire face transformed so quickly. He went from brooding, intense, to someone she’d never seen. Relaxed. Warm. Sexy as hell.

  “Holy shit,” she whispered.

  His eyebrow went up in question.

  “Your smile,” she explained. “I’ve never seen you smile like that. I don’t think I’ve seen you smile at all.”

  He grimaced, and she regretted her words because she lost the smile.

  “Usually not a lot to smile about when we see each other.”

  This was true enough, since the only time he saw her was when he or a team member was injured.

  “And you’ll get that chance to taste me,” he said, a wicked gleam in his eye.

  She put her hand on those muscled shoulders and rolled her fingers over his skin, down to his collarbone and then back up again, lazily tracing a path.

  “You’re a really beautiful man,” she said in a breathy voice.

  “You’re nuts. Cute but nuts.”

  She arched an eyebrow. “Cute is usually a code word when people don’t want to say something that could be considered an insult.”

  “I believe we’ve already covered your hotness factor. No insults, veiled or otherwise, from me. I’ve got you in bed. I’m good for at least a year on the fulfilled fantasies list.”

  “You know, I really like what you say now that you’re actually talking to me.”

  He grinned again, and it sent a thrill all the way to her belly. Lord, but this man was to-die-for sexy. And he was naked. On top of her. Saying sweet things and giving her compliments. Looking at her like she was the sexiest woman on earth. If this was a dream she was going to be one super-pissed-off woman when she woke up.

  “If you don’t mind, I’m done talking for a while. I’ve got a lot of tasting to do.”

  “Oh, not at all,” she breathed.

  “But first, I’m going to get you completely naked so I can mark number two off my wish list.”

  “What’s number one?”

  He pinned her with his fierce gaze, his expression utterly serious.

  “I’ll get to that one when I’m balls deep inside you.”

  CHAPTER 5

  MAREN held her breath when Steele thumbed her bra straps down her shoulders and began slowly peeling back the cups covering her breasts. He leaned to one side, propping himself on his elbow and turned her with him so he could reach behind her to unfasten the hooks.

  Then he rolled her back and settled atop her once more.

  “You have beautiful tits,” Steele said in a sandpapery voice. “Been dying to taste them.”

  Her lips quirked up in a grin. “You seem to have a lot of fantasies involving tasting.”

  He leaned down and she thought he would put his mouth on her nipple, but he kissed between her breasts and then brushed his lips down her midline. He adjusted himself so he lay between her splayed thighs, his chin just above the lace waistband of her panties.

  “Been looking forward to this,” Steele whispered as he began to inch her underwear down her legs.

  All her previous inhibitions and nervousness fled. This was a man who genuinely wanted her and had evidently fantasized about her on at least a semiregular basis. Who was she to argue with a man’s fantasies?

  He tugged the panties from her ankles and they fluttered to the floor over his shoulder. He nudged her legs farther apart and then moved his body up hers until his mouth hovered enticingly over her mound.

  With gentle fingers he parted her labia, exposing her clit and opening her to his avid gaze.

  “Beautiful,” he murmured.

  Her breath caught in her throat as his head descended. She closed her eyes and gasped when his tongue stroked over her clitoris. It was a warm shock to her entire body. Her legs trembled and her belly tightened. She stirred restlessly underneath him as his hands smoothed over her hips, anchoring her further within his grasp.

  He nuzzled and licked, pressing tender kisses over her most intimate flesh. Never would s
he have imagined Steele being such a patient, gentle lover. She would have placed odds on his being quick and forceful, and yet he seemed determined to take things exquisitely slow and bring them both maximum pleasure.

  She was definitely okay with that. She was more than happy to lose a night’s sleep if it meant having Steele make love to her the entire time. She could always catch up after he and his team left.

  The idea that it could be months before she saw him again left her with an achy hollow feeling, but she couldn’t focus on that now. Not when he was between her legs giving her the best oral sex of her entire life.

  “You checking out on me, Maren?”

  She blinked and looked down to see Steele’s head raised, his gaze boring into hers. She flushed. The very last thing she wanted him to think was that she wasn’t into this and he wasn’t satisfying her. Good grief, what woman in bed with him could ever think such a thing?

  “No,” she said huskily. “Definitely not.”

  “You with me then?”

  “Oh yeah, I’m with you,” she breathed.

  “Is what I’m doing feeling good? You have to tell me if I’m not doing it right. I want this to be good for you.”

  Her heart melted at the tinge of uncertainty in his voice. She reached down and touched his cheek, letting her fingers run over his firm jawline.

  “If you did it any better, I’d be in a pleasure-induced coma.”

  Another smile flashed, and she realized she could fast become addicted to his smiles. They were so rare and yet in the space of an hour she’d been on the receiving end of multiple smiles from this hard-as-nails warrior. Did anyone else ever see these? Somehow she didn’t think they did, which made the fact that he was smiling for her even more precious.

  “I want you out of your mind before I get inside you because I can’t guarantee how long I’m going to last when I get inside that sweet pussy of yours. Been fantasizing about it for too long.”

  She let out a blissful sigh. “Oh, I’m with you, Steele. No worries there. I want you inside me every bit as much as you want to be there. Promise.”

  Another grin flashed. “You been thinking about me too?”